Its been eight weeks since I started my therapy treatment and I’ve learned a lot. One of the things I’ve been taught is mindfulness, learning how to live in the moment without judgement. Now, its time for the toughest and most important part of the treatment – exposure. In short; it means exposing yourself to whatever scares you.
I’ve been terrified ever since I learned that this is part of the treatment. You chase the things you naturally are trying to avoid and wake feelings you are trying your hardest to kill. But the point is to learn that those feelings, memories and situations are not dangerous, and the more you expose yourself to it the calmer you’ll get. Its like treating phobia – if you’re scared of spiders you should be around them to learn they’re not dangerous.
This is something I’ve been trying to do for a long time, but now I feel like I have the tools to do so. Its going to be tough, but I’m determined to take control over my brain ghosts. They are a part of me, but they don’t rule over me. And that’s what’s important, remember that.
Until next time, take care.